Him: "Why you smiling?"
Me: "How you know I was smiling?"
. Him: "Cause you will always miss me. The moment we said goodbye under my block. Cause you're in love and you're just being yourself and I'm honoured to be the reason. Thank you sayang for loving me like how I've always loved you."
Oktober 2008 November 2008 Dezember 2008 Januar 2009 Februar 2009 März 2009 April 2009 Mai 2009 Juni 2009 Juli 2009 August 2009 September 2009 Oktober 2009 November 2009 Dezember 2009 Januar 2010 Februar 2010 März 2010 April 2010 Mai 2010 Juni 2010 Juli 2010 August 2010 September 2010 November 2010 Dezember 2010 Januar 2011 Februar 2011 Oktober 2011 Januar 2012 Februar 2012 März 2012 Juli 2012 April 2013 Oktober 2014 Dezember 2014 Januar 2015 Juli 2015 August 2015 September 2015 Oktober 2015 November 2015
I sat here, thought that he would come to me but in the end, I found peace because I felt as if he's there with me. I looked up and the same stars were there when we sat under them yesterday. I smiled and told myself to be blessed because he and I, are still one.
"Over attached? Then you need to slow down and take things slowly. Jangan susah hati. This is just part of life, everyone has a life to go through. Its just that now both of you are in it together. You need to give and take I guess. Things happened. He is always there for you when you need him. He never show that he doesn't need you. You're just thinking too much dear. Just know that he is always there for you. Just let this course of life go through. You're probably stress with yourself, thinking that this will not work out and stuff. You need to learn to be patient. He loves you dear. Just busy with life."
- Seri Idayu
My dearest prince, always lift up your head up when you're down if not, the crown will fall.
Love came down due to a change of plans to his schedule and I did the right thing not to follow my parents to Malaysia. We spent the night together and I told myself under my breath to "cherish each second with him cause it is gonna be another 1 week or prolly more". He went off in the middle of the night because I told myself, he is not solely for me, but his family too.
There was a period of time when everything stopped and I just looked at him in the dark room with little light from the windows. I got carried away when his head was on my chest and we hugged and I caressed my fingers through his hair. A tear fell and I don't know why.
I missed you so much. And all I needed was a hug, my fingers running across your soft cheeks and my lips on yours. Thank you baby and sorry again for being difficult.
I love you
I loved you, I love you and I will love you.
Deep down, I actually broke down. Not because of any disappointment or any sadness. Its just the feeling of belonging. Suddenly I felt like I was thrown back in 2009 and back again in 2014. I don't know how to say this but, you are definitely the one. Despite you saying, "What if I have a girlfriend... In one point in life, we have to face it..." and I just kept quiet, not wanting to even say out my words because I just couldn't and wouldn't want that to happen. And I know many who are married with their wives but in the end they played behind their backs and destroyed the sacredness of their marriage.
You finally said, "I will always be here. I will not leave you..." and looked at me in the eyes.
We have come to this stage and age when we want something to push us to the future, together. Those days in the past when everything was short lived no longer exists. I see this as a blessing because, we have hold hands 6 years ago and now, we are holding each other's hands again.
Thank you baby for making me feel complete.
"That feeling you get when your loved one sleeps beside you and all you do is stare at his lips and cute face. And when I kissed his lips, he woke up and smiled and returned a kiss."
Him: "19 hours ago. WHO. WHOOOOOO >:("
Me: "You lah. Tweet lambat."
Him: "I'm not believing. Its 19 hours agooooooooo."
Me: "Couldn't sleep so I just tweeted that."
Me: "Tsk u eh. Yes."
Him: "Okay. I believe you."
Me: "I already told you, monogamous. I don't play behind your back. Cause I wont like it if you do it on me."
Him: "Oh now you saying back to me. WHOOOOOOOO. You sleeping around again is it?????"
Me: "Huh noooooo."
Him: "Haha. Chill baby."
Dearest boyfriend. If you are reading this, just remember, I will always love you. You gave me a special kind of love that made me fall for you for the 3rd time and that never happened to me despite me having tons and tons of relationships before.
And never ever question my loyalty.
They say 'people change after every breakup' and now I am back with him, I just need to secure back that comfort I have in trusting him that he won't leave me again. I guess its karma. I did that to him 6 years ago. Please don't take my baby away again. I just need assurance and i'll be fine. The fact that we don't text much these few days was cause he is busy in camp and his family. I don't like to be that clingy boyfriend cause if that were to happen to me, I guess I'd get annoyed but we are just recently back together. I just need to know, is he serious about it?. I really miss those days when I knew that he is mine and I am his and no one could possibly come in between.
I really hope his feelings won't change
I really hope his thoughts won't switch
I really hope his love will be for me and his family forever
Hope he doesn't get annoyed reading this. Just needa rant out or I'll get crazy. Crazy in love with him.
I dont know why I am feeling uncertain. Prolly cause I have unstable feelings about everything ever since. I shall love him like how he loves me. And why? Because I want to.
Here I am sitting in the office and I am just waiting for the time to just pass by. Sore throat just hd to come at the wrong time and I got a flight to catch later after work.
I am still not sure on what to bring on hand cause transit, my luggage wont be with me. Problem is, my wallet is too thick.
Ok I actually miss him. I don't like this feeling. If only religion and conservatism of parents doesnt exist, we would have been together, even right now.
Malaysian Airlines, leggo
How am I feeling? I still do miss him. But this is the best for us. I dont want him to be sick like me. I heard he fell on a hill of something. Hopefully he is okay. He should stop following his dreams cause its not about me its referring to.
Going Bangkok in a few days time and I feel a little anxious about the flights. Theres just too many accidents involving the aviation industry just last year and I feel the cringe in flying. I have been flying for quite a long time but I have never been having this fear of anything happening during flight.
I made an oath to myself to save the people before myself. My lifespan is numbered while the rest isnt. Hopefully we wont burn to death cause aviation fuel can be damn, painful. I am not asking for an accident to happen but just in case anything happens, I am mentally prepared. But whatever it is, if I reach BKK safely, imma just have fun.
Baby got food poisoning. I had food poisoning. Colleague had food poisoning on the day before I got mine. Don't make me believe that food poisoning is the new Ebola. It rarely comes to my mind that I would literally make Du'a for the health of my boy. It sucks getting food poisoning, it made me lost weight. I hope my boy is recovering fast. I don't feel good when my other half is feeling sick.
So yesterday me and Hana had a talk and we had throwback sessions to our O's and N's days. It was just me, my boy and Hana when we were at RP studying. She mentioned Shufiah was there but I can't remember she was there. Oh wait. Was Hajarah there too? I remembered using my small Netbook and "camwhoring" the whole time during our study sessions. Good memories ey?
Hana showed me a picture that the 3 of us took five years ago in the toilet and she asked,